There are ups and downs

Today slept most of the day and night. Its 3 am now. Tomorrow sending letters that I have been writing for so long. Hopefully doing Christmas shopping because I still haven´t. My sister Leticia found out she is going to Germany the beginning of January so things are a little crazy around the house now. We are still taking our vacation for Christmas break, its just shorter now. So might not get the opportunity to see Julianna in Lodrina. Its okay though. I am still getting to go to Paraguay and Foz do Iguaço so thats really cool. Then I will get back from that I believe the first of January and not sure if Im packing my bags and changing houses or waiting until after I return from my trip to the NE. So greatful for my mother she has done so much to make it possible for me to go on this trip. Calling them all the time and emailing making sure its all working out correctly. I think its going to be an amazing time and I didnt want to do a whole month at first now I cant wait. Its expensive, but she made it happen and so did my father and all the people that donated to me. I am indescribably grateful. Went to two parties last weekend one was a white party for a fifteen year olds bday. Bet it cost a ton of money. They are big here like Mexico or the Sweet 16´s you see on MTV. It was a blast my calfs and feet are killing me though from wearing high heals. They dont really know how to dance to american music, but when brasilian music comes on they go nuts. The macareena came on and no one had any idea what to do. So I went to the middle of the floor and started dancing. Then they started following it was awesome. Going out at 1 and not coming home until 5 was kicking my butt though. The next party was bye bye 2011 it was fun. It was outside and because of the rain we had to dance in mud. They dont understand PDA here thats a little akward dancing while people are playing tounsel hockey all around me. Just something I have to get use to I guess. Need to go to bed so I can get up on time to send my letters tomorrow. A little home sick because it really doesnt feel like Christmas here with all the rain. Barely any lights around. No Christmas music or movie marathons or hot chocolate. I made sugar cookies for my rotary though and listened to FM christmas music that was nice. My rotary loved the cookies. So some positive and negatives in this post. Thats life for you though. Goodnight who is ever reading

Past three days

I had a mass on Tuesday night for my graduation. Wasn't bad didnt understand it all though. Wednesday went shopping with my sister for about 4 hours for shoes when we both ended up going back to the first store and bought our shoes there. They bought me heals for R$100 so about $50! Had an hour and a half to get ready for out graduation. Went got a bunch of pictures taken except my mom only took l...ike one so I need to get ahold of the professional that was there. They put me in slide show with a quote about arriving and adjusting. Talked about me in the speech with an inside joke it was really sweet. I walked with my third dad down the aisle I guess to the stage. We dont keep our caps and gowns here. They gave me like a letter instead of a diploma because I techinally didnt graduate and will be going back to the same school next year. Had a dinner after wards then a small dance they loved watching me dance. Teenage Brasilians either dance forro or funk generally. Went to a bowling alley with my friends, but it was closed so just went home. Yesterday a classmate of mine had a bbq at his grandparents farm. I helped prepare the salad. They threw people in pool just like Americans do. people danced a little. I got a sunburn on my chest from falling asleep in the sun. A cop stopped by but no one got in trouble.Tons of people stayed the night there. Finishing up my last things for my trip to the NE! Still dont know where I am going for Christmas.

Many emotions

Its been awhile since I posted or wrote in my journal. I am out of school though for about 2 months so I have time. Just going through alot. I went without Thanksgiving this, no big deal. Got a new nephew failed all my finals in school including the english one =) who remembers past immediate and future continuing or something like that. I got very overwhelmed with the language and my bloood pressure sky rocketed. I am good now after my mom freaked out. Gotta love. The brasilians are very loving and caring and took me to the ER when my blood pressure was high. We tried to get an english teacher here to help me with learning portuguese. It was a good try, but was unsuccessful. I made a deal with myself though I am going to study everyday in December because I dont feel like I have gave portuguese a fair shot. I am five days in and not exactly successful I would say. Need to get back to business. Went to a movie in Brasilia Amanhecer, didnt like it, but it blew me away it was in English with portuguese subtitles. Addicted to Smallville now with my family. Going on a trip to the NE in January my dad gave me a pep talk about money and safety while traveling. He also gave me one about being strong and that I am capable of staying here. That hard things are better than easy things in the long run. He told me about his dad when he passed away from cancer it was touching because my dad works alot. So I got to see a different side of him. Went to a party with the other exchange students in my district. It was cool to meet them all. Blew me away everyone speaks english so well thats the common language for everyone. The mexicans spoke spanish togethor and the brasilians dont understand. But the mexicans speak very good portuguese in my opinion. Evryone thinks my language ability is very good and compared to some of the other exchange students it is. I atleast try, but I could be working alot harder and need to be. One mexican girl already went home, I didnt get to meet her. The girl from Germany only likes speaking english. One girl from America got here late October and right after she got here she got pneumonia. I would have freaked. She hasnt been here long, but she doesnt try to speak the language she only speaks english. I kinda wish I lived in Brasilia where most of the other exchange students live so I could go out with them. But at the same time I am glad I am in Formosa because of the ppl I have met and if I would have the chance to speak english alot I probably would. SInce I am alone here I have no choice to speak portuguese and only have brasilian friends so I am acting experiencign the culture.