Many emotions

Its been awhile since I posted or wrote in my journal. I am out of school though for about 2 months so I have time. Just going through alot. I went without Thanksgiving this, no big deal. Got a new nephew failed all my finals in school including the english one =) who remembers past immediate and future continuing or something like that. I got very overwhelmed with the language and my bloood pressure sky rocketed. I am good now after my mom freaked out. Gotta love. The brasilians are very loving and caring and took me to the ER when my blood pressure was high. We tried to get an english teacher here to help me with learning portuguese. It was a good try, but was unsuccessful. I made a deal with myself though I am going to study everyday in December because I dont feel like I have gave portuguese a fair shot. I am five days in and not exactly successful I would say. Need to get back to business. Went to a movie in Brasilia Amanhecer, didnt like it, but it blew me away it was in English with portuguese subtitles. Addicted to Smallville now with my family. Going on a trip to the NE in January my dad gave me a pep talk about money and safety while traveling. He also gave me one about being strong and that I am capable of staying here. That hard things are better than easy things in the long run. He told me about his dad when he passed away from cancer it was touching because my dad works alot. So I got to see a different side of him. Went to a party with the other exchange students in my district. It was cool to meet them all. Blew me away everyone speaks english so well thats the common language for everyone. The mexicans spoke spanish togethor and the brasilians dont understand. But the mexicans speak very good portuguese in my opinion. Evryone thinks my language ability is very good and compared to some of the other exchange students it is. I atleast try, but I could be working alot harder and need to be. One mexican girl already went home, I didnt get to meet her. The girl from Germany only likes speaking english. One girl from America got here late October and right after she got here she got pneumonia. I would have freaked. She hasnt been here long, but she doesnt try to speak the language she only speaks english. I kinda wish I lived in Brasilia where most of the other exchange students live so I could go out with them. But at the same time I am glad I am in Formosa because of the ppl I have met and if I would have the chance to speak english alot I probably would. SInce I am alone here I have no choice to speak portuguese and only have brasilian friends so I am acting experiencign the culture.